Now why on earth do I believe so ? After 26/11(I was fortunate not to watch the bloody mayhem on the TV, I just read the news paper)I was very much disturbed and scared for days. And of course the discussions with the friends were of only this and how the state system failed us. There were so many to blame -the police, the intelligence agency and our favourite target -netas and so on.
The discussion,the debates made me more restless rather than relieving even a bit of stress I had. I kept on thinking how it could have not happened ! Why was I so scared ? After all(touchwood)nobody I knew was there and terrorist attacks in India were no novelty. Moreover I grew up along with the turmoil in Punjab in the 80's.
After much self debates and reasoning I concluded that I was scared because of the way it happened. It increased the probability of this happening to me or someone close. The usual desire to change the system was surging very high and of course reason for the added anxiety. In no way I could have changed the system. Forget the system it is so difficult to change my six year old one !!! That led to another revelation-the only way to change the system is to change yourself. The only way to contribute and make everything more efficient is through your very own self. So I decided I shall work on improving my efficiency. My efficiency as a student(am still studying),as a mother, as a spouse and last but not the least as a member of the society we live in. How to contribute to the society is a very subjective issue and I shall not get into that. And I decided to stop myself telling others what to do and what not to do(but then exceptions are always there-leaves the family:)-). The crux is do whatever you can in your capacity. Do not preach.
The discussion,the debates made me more restless rather than relieving even a bit of stress I had. I kept on thinking how it could have not happened ! Why was I so scared ? After all(touchwood)nobody I knew was there and terrorist attacks in India were no novelty. Moreover I grew up along with the turmoil in Punjab in the 80's.
After much self debates and reasoning I concluded that I was scared because of the way it happened. It increased the probability of this happening to me or someone close. The usual desire to change the system was surging very high and of course reason for the added anxiety. In no way I could have changed the system. Forget the system it is so difficult to change my six year old one !!! That led to another revelation-the only way to change the system is to change yourself. The only way to contribute and make everything more efficient is through your very own self. So I decided I shall work on improving my efficiency. My efficiency as a student(am still studying),as a mother, as a spouse and last but not the least as a member of the society we live in. How to contribute to the society is a very subjective issue and I shall not get into that. And I decided to stop myself telling others what to do and what not to do(but then exceptions are always there-leaves the family:)-). The crux is do whatever you can in your capacity. Do not preach.
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