Friday, February 8, 2013
A time, when you feel hurt on account of the circumstances not entirely in your hands, when the ones you love, you care for unintentionally create and on top of that you feel their pain, is rather taxing. But then this is all part of being alive ! Though I would like to change many things yet again a situation where I can not fix anything but can only change the attitude to look at the scenario that makes it less painful. It is a difficult lesson to learn but a lesson worth spending your time and energy on !
Sunday, February 3, 2013
I am amazed at how much it has become important for me to have approval of others for what I do or say ! I did not realise it earlier so clearly that I have become almost a prisoner of my own thoughts initiated by the imaginary reactions of others. And I can say for sure there would be only a few other such wasteful activities ! In spite of maintaining a strong external shell, the internal state has been quite fluid and messy. The consequences are becoming clear now. Being an advocate to look at life from a bigger perspective, how and where my own view became so narrow for myself is a bit puzzling to me. But then life itself is the biggest school for learning and thankfully you never outgrow it ! Now is the time to pick up a new lesson- to be happy and comfortable in your own skin.